Your missive hit home. I was 7 when my parents deemed me too fat and put me on a diet. Then I became the girl with crumbs in her pockets. The girl who wished to be able to have what everyone else was having. The girl who was too much literally and figuratively.
At the same time it became important to everyone that I get good (read perfect) grades in school. So then I became the girl who worried. The girl who obsessed about doing more. The girl who wasn’t enough.
I am 68 years old and have been in therapy for 20 years and what has helped me is EMDR therapy. I’m just now learning that it doesn’t matter that they thought me too much or not enough. It matters that I know I’m just right. Having a good person to guide you through the forest of the past and help you find the truth about you is everything.
I am grateful.
PS I never had children but your description of seeing you in her really touched me as I’ve begun to see the girl who was too much and not enough and heal her.
PPS apparently you have created a safe space here. Thank you.
Your missive hit home. I was 7 when my parents deemed me too fat and put me on a diet. Then I became the girl with crumbs in her pockets. The girl who wished to be able to have what everyone else was having. The girl who was too much literally and figuratively.
At the same time it became important to everyone that I get good (read perfect) grades in school. So then I became the girl who worried. The girl who obsessed about doing more. The girl who wasn’t enough.
I am 68 years old and have been in therapy for 20 years and what has helped me is EMDR therapy. I’m just now learning that it doesn’t matter that they thought me too much or not enough. It matters that I know I’m just right. Having a good person to guide you through the forest of the past and help you find the truth about you is everything.
I am grateful.
PS I never had children but your description of seeing you in her really touched me as I’ve begun to see the girl who was too much and not enough and heal her.
♥️